It can be very hard to hear that something difficult is going to have a long lasting impact on our lives.
If you’re waiting for a church service to worship God, then you, my friend, have missed the point. Long before church existed, men and women worshiped God. In the wilderness, all alone, unsure of the next step. In groups. In psalms. In prayer. You do not need a church building, a guitar player, a worship leader, or a pastor to worship. You just need an awe and reverence of God that acknowledges He is God and you are not.
No matter the terror you face in the night, whether it comes from PTSD or worry or a thousand things you need to get done, I promise you that God is enough and if He chooses to use a spouse or a best friend or some random person on the street to encourage you, give Him the glory first. He is worth it. I promise.